emotions are evil
which kills you
the more you feel
the worse for you
I want to be cold
like ice
I do not want to trust
I want to be angry and indifferent
i want to be a bitch
but something is holding me back
something keeps me from showing my bad side
this smile that I like and kills me
stuck in my head
I want to get rid of her
this gentle voice ringing in my head
all this interferes and doesn't allow to be soulless
and I don't want to hold back
because it all sucks me out
I want to get rid of you
so as not to feel pain
I want to be bad
not to regret
so as not to worry about my every action
for every word I say
for every tear from my eyes
which spills over my cheeks
but I can't let you go
and it does not allow me
show myself different
and it kills me more